The Dead Don't Say No!

Its Been A While...

2005-12-20T19:26:17Z

Where to start...

I know I'll just go through the last few weeks or so.

Well got paid on the 8th and also got an overdraft, which i decided for this month i will just have one over the top spending, and ended up getting my self some airsofting stuff since I plan to try and get to the games more regulary. So order myself a KSC USP Compact for a side are after seeing it and reading some reviews, also got a holster and spare mag for it and some gas, 'cause well it needs gas to work. Also got a proper sling for my AK 47 since its rather annoying using the strap of a bag of some sort. So that all came to just under £230. After placing the order I got it all through a couple of days later and I love my shiny new toy, only problem is in scotland, GBBs don't like the cold weather -_-' ah well it will still come in hand some times.
Didn't get up to much after that but last week I think I was out the house nearly everyday, which was good I guess. Went to Glasgow on the monday to get a couple of new bits of clothing. Tuesday I think I stayed in. Wednesday went to Glasgow with my sister to show her where Adventure 1 was, then came home and got ready for the Arch Enemy gig. Head back to Glasgow and went to Rufus T's for a couple of drinks then headed to the gig just in time to catch the end of Strapping Young Lad who seem not to bad. It was a great gig, great atmosphere and good music ^_^. When Arch Enemy where on I managed to get to the second row of the crowd and although I had at least 3 elbows in my back the whole night, it was fantastic. Was feeling rather fucked after the gig and just sat online spacing out man it was fun ^_^.
Thursday I had work and was a little not all there, hehehe ^_^. Best night of work I believe.
Friday did my usual. Went to my cousin's.
Saturday I had work all day, when and chatted to Paul L on my breaks and ended walking out with 6 free DVD ^_^. Then after work I swung past Paul G's got my AK47 back, gave him back the money I owed him then head home to get ready for Crimbo-lam. (A.K.A. Bedlam.) Good night out some nice tunes, got a little drunk and danced like a monkey for a good chung of the night.
After bedlam ended up waiting an hour on a taxi home even tho I had booked it for 2:30am, so that put a bit of a dampper on the night but not enough to bring me down.
Sunday I ended up sleep a wee bit to late since i was ment to be outside woolies to get a lift off someone to the Shotts so I could play Airsoft, but lucky the guy phoned me, and got me at the osprey instead so still managed to get my liftage.
Airsofting was not to bad, abit to cold and since we play at the spooky woods and I forgot to take my clear eye protection, I could see shit druing those games, but still managed to do my part of being the one who is gonna die :P. My pistol was playing up all day until it was all over and I was packing up my stuff. Ah well maybe next time it will get better feild test.
After I got back from airsoft I was shattered and ended up just heading straight to my bed, and well now i think the weekend has had a knock on effect with my sleeping habit since i was up till around 6am last night and stayed in bed till 4pm this afternoon. Must sort that out before it gets out of hand again.

Anyway I think I've bored you enough, so probably next time I update will be after Xmas, so Merry Christmas to all and to all have fun what ever you do.

Laterz!

where has my life gone...

2005-12-09T20:48:19Z

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[Scars:] On my left eyebrow
[Do you wear Makeup?:] nope
[What color is your bedroom?:] Blue
[Most expensive item you have:] My AK47
[How would you classify your style?:] Style?
[Fear:] Death
[Loves:] Music, My PS2, My bed
[Worst Habit:] craking my knuckles
[How do others see you:] ask them not me
[What are you labeled?:] Mostly freak i think
[How many contacts do you have?:] A lot
[How many are online right now?:] 1
[What song are you listening to?:] Rammstein - Nebel
~Home~
[Are your parents together:] Yup
[Pets:] None
[Siblings:] My sis sarah

[Siblings ages:] 21
[Parents age:] Mother 45, Father 47
[Parents job:] Engineer, Care Nurse
[House color:] Who cares :P
[Number of floors your house has:] 2
[Fav. thing about your house:] My room
[Least fav. thing about your house:] The walls are too bloody thin!!

~Friends~
[More acquaintances than friends:] I would say yea
[Do you like all your friends:] I wont call them friend if i didnt like them
[Worst thing a friend has done to you:] meh...
[Worst thing you've done to a friend:] Started arguing with them for no reason
[Loudest friend:] I dunno
[Shyest:] Dunno
[Most talented:] The all have their own talents
[Smartest:] I'll what till after they get the exam results before answering this one
[Sexiest:]
[Craziest:] All of them :P
[Weirdest:] see above :P
[Always makes you smile:] they all do sometimes

~Secrets~
[Done drugs:] Only one
[Got drunk:] Many times
[Smoke:] Yup
[Stayed up all night partying:] Yeah
[Stayed up all night alone:] Many times
[Hooked up with someone you didn't know:] Yup
[Hooked up with a friends guy/girl:] Nope
[Broken the law:] more that likely
[Snuck out:] Not really my parents dont really care what time i go out at as long as i dont die or something like that
[Stolen:] Yea
[Skinny-dipped:] nope
[Stalked someone:] Nope

(P.s None of them where secrets or else i wouldnt have answer them)

~Favourites~
[Color:] Red, Purple, Black
[Music Genre:] Metal, EBM/Industrial
[Movie Genre:] Comedy or Horror that are actually good
[Band:] Machine Head!!
[Animal:] Dragons
[Sport:] Ice Hockey
[Song:] Hard one but recently it has been Machine Head - Seasons Wither
[Quote:] "The denies his own strength, He denies totallity. Differance denies unitity, Hatred Denies Happiness. Fury Denies Peace."
[Book:] I don't read that much
[Movie:] Tough one
[Composer:] Rob Flynn
[Language:] English its the only one i understand
[Person:] My friends, who I dont get to see often enough :P
[Clothing:] MH hoodie, MH army shirt, Phat Farm Jeans

Another Music Thing

2005-12-08T16:40:53Z

The interesting "Use songs as your answers" quiz
1.Choose a band/artist and answer ONLY in titles of their songs: Machine Head
2. Are you male or female: Davidian
3. Describe yourself: Alan's On Fire (Cover)
4. How do some people feel about you: Deafening Silence
5. How do you feel about yourself: Nothing Left
6. Describe your ex boyfriend / girlfriend: Wipe The Tears
7. Describe current boyfriend / girlfriend: All In Your Head
8. Describe where you want to be: The Forntlines
9. Describe where you live: In the Presence of My Enemies
10. Describe who you love: Seasons Wither
11. Share a few words of Wisdom: Kick You When Your Down

12. Now say goodbye: Decend The Shades Of Night

Some of those were pretty damn hard...

Music thing...

2005-12-06T19:48:09Z

1. Open up the music player on your computer.
2. Set it to play your entire music collection.
3. Hit the shuffle command.
4. Tell us the title of the next twenty-five songs that show up (with their musicians), no matter how embarrassing. That's right, no skipping that Carpenters tune that will totally destroy your hip credibility. It's time for total musical honesty. Write it up in your blog or journal and link back to at least a couple of the other sites where you saw this

1. Front 242 - Work 242
2. System of a Down - Needles
3. Suicide Commando - Better Off Dead
4. The Shizit - Firewall
5. Soulfly - Corrosion Creeps
6. Painbastard - Final Day
7. [:SITD:] - Stronghold
8. In Flames - Dail 595-Escape
9. H.I.M - Buried Alive By Love
10. In Flames - Food For The Gods
11. :Wumpscut: - Down Where We Belong (Instrumental Take 1)
12. Tactical Sekt - Catatonic
13. Front 242 - Modern Angel
14. Rage Against The Machine - Vietnow
15. VNV Nation - Holding On
16. Suicide Commando - Necrophilia
17. The Shizit - P.O.S.
18. Fear Factory - Acres Of Skin
19. Roadrunner United - The Enemy
20. [:SITD:] - Plastination City
21. Soulfly - Soulfly
22. Killswitch Engage - World Ablaze
23. Icon Of Coil - Other Half of Me
24. [:SITD:] - Epitome
25. Dimmu Borgir - For The World To Dictate Our Death

What Happened?

2005-12-02T22:21:03Z

Well this has been a rather un-eventful week. Done nothing with myself other than play Counter-Strike really. Ok I have cleaned up the house a wee bit but not much, also been out the house for at least five mins each day but that ain't really much. Beginning to think maybe I should just go for random cycles every now and then but the thing to stop me doing that is the bloody cold and the fact I can't control my speed so I end up spriting to whereever I'm going and then on the way back I completely shattered. Ah well excercise is a good thing.
I don't wanna go to work tomorrow but saddly I have to since I'm going to have to show a noob what to do, oh the joy... I can hardly contane it ¬_¬. Ah well it should be a wee bit of fun to show someone else the hell that is Somerfeild if nothing else, plus it will be nice to have a little help, instead of me having to do it all myself.
As long as the noob does what I tell him, and doesn't fuck up to much it should be fine and I shouldn't have to worry about being in a bad mood or anything before band practise... I'm so glad I'm rather use to long days like that.
Anyway time to relaxe I guess.

Laterz!

Non-Believers will die

2005-11-27T13:50:15Z

Well I feel things are starting to pick up a little bit. To start things off I'm no longer staying up all night then sleeping all day. I'm actually getting a normal sleeping pattren, WOO HOO. Finish filling in an application form for Matalan so hopefully soon I can get the hell out of Somerfeild and in to a job that might not play with what little sanity I have left.
I've not be as bored either, I'm finding it easier to find something to do when I start to get bored and also I feel I'm getting out a bit more and doing more with myself, which is always a good thing. I hat sitting rotting in the house.
Finally found myself a band and well all the members are cool guys and love a good laugh, so having fun there even thought I've only been to 2 practises, but still alot of fun. Need to try and remember the songs tho... that would really help. Hehe. Ah well I will remember them eventually.
Was out at bedlam last night and it was good fun, who can really complain to good music and cheap drink. Got rather drunk which is surprising really 'cause I didn't actually drink that much. Could have been the fact I hadn't eaten before hand and was having to knock a couple of them back as quickly as possible in order to dance like a fool to some Combichrist and VNV.
So far the only thing really to get me a liitle down has been work and missing the VNV gig, but then thats what happens when you have no cash the day of the gig I guess.
Before anyone asks how I had money for Bedlam but not for VNV, its because I borrowed money off my dad and off Paul G, which I will give back ASAP.
Anyway, thats all I really had to say. I'm off to work on guitar, then play a few games

Later

Bored

2005-11-23T18:36:57Z

1. ONE OF YOUR SCARS, HOW DID YOU GET IT?
just above my left eye. Skateboarding mishap

2. WHAT IS ON THE WALLS IN YOUR ROOM?
posters, cig packets, other random crap

3. WHAT COLOUR IS YOUR CELL PHONE?
any colour i want

4. WHAT MUSIC DO YOU LIKE TO LISTEN TO?
Metal, Industrial/EBM, Rock

5. DO YOU KNOW WHAT TIME YOU WERE BORN?
Sometime in the evening i think

6. WHAT DO YOU WANT MORE THAN ANYTHING RIGHT NOW?
I dunno actually

7. WHAT DO YOU MISS?
getting drunk

8. WHAT IS YOUR MOST PRIZED POSSESSION?
CDs, Guitar, AK47

9. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SMELL?
not the one i can smell just now

10. DO YOU GET CLAUSTROPHOBIC?
nope

11. DO YOU GET SCARED IN THE DARK?
only if its pitch black outside
12. THE LAST PERSON TO MAKE YOU CRY?
I'd rather not say
13. WHAT IS YOUR FAVOURITE COLOGNE / PERFUME?
Dunno

14: WHAT KIND OF HAIR DO YOU LIKE ON THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Anything longer that face length

15. WHERE CAN YOU SEE YOURSELF BEING PROPOSED TO?
since places cant propose... no where

16. COFFEE OR ENERGY DRINKS?
both hyperness

17. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE PIZZA TOPPING?
ham and mushroom
18. IF YOU COULD EAT ANYTHING RIGHT NOW WHAT WOULD IT BE?
anything

19. WHO IS THE LAST PERSON YOU MADE MAD?
dunno my mum probably

20. DO YOU SPEAK A DIFFERENT LANGUAGE?
Nope

21. WHAT WAS THE FIRST GIFT SOMEONE EVER GAVE YOU (OF THE OPPOSITE SEX)?
A bottle of Morgan's Spice then they drank it for me too

28. WOULD YOU FALL IN LOVE KNOWING THAT THE PERSON IS LEAVING?
dunno

29. WHAT IS THE BEST WAY TO TELL SOMEONE HOW MUCH THEY MEAN TO YOU?
by telling them

30. SAY A NUMBER FROM ONE TO A HUNDRED :7

31. BLONDES OR BRUNETTES?
I prefer brunettes but any colour will do

32. WHAT IS THE ONE NUMBER YOU CALL OFTEN?
My dad

33. WHAT ANNOYS YOU MOST?
bordem

34. HAVE YOU BEEN OUT OF THE UK?
yup

35. YOUR WEAKNESSES?
being quiet

36. WHERE WERE YOU BORN?
RAH, Pasiley
37. FIRST JOB?
Sales Assistant in WHSmiths

38. EVER DONE A PRANK CALL?
Yea

39. WHAT WERE YOU DOING BEFORE YOU FILLED OUT THIS SURVEY?
nothing

40. IF YOU COULD GET PLASTIC SURGERY WHAT WOULD IT BE?
Dunno

41. WHY DID YOU FILL OUT THIS SURVEY?
bored

42. WHAT DO YOU GET COMPLIMENTED ABOUT MOST?
Being lazy, sleeping all day and staying up all night

43. WHAT WOULD YOU DO IF ALCOHOL BECAME ILLEGAL?
wonder what universe i was in

44. WHAT DO YOU WANT FOR YOUR BIRTHDAY?
To far away to think about

45. HOW MANY KIDS DO YOU WANT?
None

47. DO YOU WISH ON STARS?
I can't get to the stars

48. WHICH FINGER[S] IS YOUR FAVORITE?
My middle one

49. WHEN DID YOU LAST CRY?
Why do these things make me remember things i would rather forget

50. DO YOU LIKE YOUR HANDWRITING?
I can read it

51. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE LUNCH MEAT?
dunno
52. ANY BAD HABITS?
dont talk much, crack my knuckles, bite my nails

53. WHAT IS YOUR MOST EMBARRASSING CD ON THE SHELF?
If its embarrassing it aint on my shelf
54. IF YOU WERE ANOTHER PERSON, WOULD YOU BE FRIENDS WITH YOU?
dunno i dont talk much

55. HAVE YOU EVER TOLD A SECRET YOU SWORE NOT TO TELL?
not that i know of

56. DO LOOKS MATTER?
Yea, but so does personallity

57. HOW DO YOU RELEASE ANGER?
Snap at people, punch things, hate the world

58. WHERE IS YOUR SECOND HOME?
dunno

59. DO YOU TRUST OTHERS EASILY?
nope

60. WHAT WAS YOUR FAVORITE TOY AS A CHILD?
my lego

61. HOW MANY NUMBERS ARE IN YOUR CELL PHONE?
dunno

63. DO YOU USE SARCASM?
never...

64. HAVE YOU EVER BEEN IN A MOSH PIT?
oh hell yea

65. WHAT DO YOU LOOK FOR IN A GUY/GIRL?
Someone I can have fun with, talk to, and just generally get along with

66. WHAT ARE YOUR NICKNAMES? do i have to list them all

68. DO YOU UNTIE YOUR SHOES WHEN YOU TAKE THEM OFF?
I would need to tie them first

70. WHAT'S YOUR FAVORITE ICE CREAM FLAVOR?
vanillia

72. WHAT ARE YOUR FAVORITE COLORS?
red,black,purple

73. do you like Heather Bierr?
Who?

74. WHO/WHAT DO YOU MISS MOST RIGHT NOW?
Getting drunk and some of my friends

75. DO YOU WANT EVERYONE TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
don't care really

76. WHAT ARE YOU LISTENING TO RIGHT NOW?
End Of Heartache - Killswitch Engage

77. LAST THING YOU ATE?
Chips

78. LAST PERSON YOU TALKED TO ON THE PHONE?
Some company

79. THE FIRST THING YOU NOTICE IN THE OPPOSITE SEX?
Smile, Eyes, body

82. FAVORITE DRINK?
Soft drink: Irn-Bru and Alcoholic Drink: Jack Dee and Coke, Morgan's and Coke

84. WHAT IS YOUR FAVORITE SPORT?
Ice Hockey

85. HAIR COLOUR?
brown

86. EYE COLOR?
greenish, blueish, brownish... i dunno

87. DO YOU WEAR GLASSES?
No

88. SIBLINGS?
Yup

89. FAVORITE MONTH?
May

90. YOU LIKE SUSHI?
never tryed

91. LAST THING YOU WATCHED?
Yu-Gi-Oh :P

92. FAVORITE DAY OF THE YEAR?
Any day i get to sleep or get drunk

93. ARE YOU TOO SHY TO ASK SOMEONE OUT?
Yup

94. SUMMER OR WINTER?
Fall

95. KISSES OR HUGS?
Both, at the same time

96. RELATIONSHIPS OR ONE NIGHT STANDS?
Dunno right now

97. WHO IS THE MOST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
don't care

98. WHO IS THE LEAST LIKELY TO ANSWER THESE QUESTIONS?
don't care

99. WHAT BOOKS ARE YOU READING?
none

100. is rory doss?
HUH?!

Whee!

2005-11-08T22:45:05Z

Full name?: Alan Scott
Nicknames?: There's a list
Age?: 19
Gender?: Male
Height?: 5ft 7 I think
Weight?: no idea
Hair color?: brown
Eye color?: blue/green/brown... I've been told all those answers
Location?: my own little world of bordom

*~*The Outer Stuff*~*
Any tatoos?: Tribal Dragon head, right arm
Piercings?: nope
Describe your outfit: T-shirt and shorts

*~*Relationships*~*
Do you have a boyfriend/girlfriend?: nope
Do you have a crush?: yea...
Do they know?: no idea
Is it mutual?: see above
What's stopping you?: Life

*~*Beliefs*~*
Do you believe in God?: he's a lazy bastard

Do you believe in Satan?: know good music

Do you believe in Hell?: where do you think the good music comes from

Heaven?: if there is a hell there must be a heaven
Nirvana?: isn't that a band =P, just kidding

*~*Currently*~*
What are you listening to?: VNV Nation - Fragments

How are you feeling?: Alright, still a little ill
Where are you?: Home

*~*Last..*~*

Person you hugged: My Sister
Person you kissed: ...
Person you missed: A few people
Person you wanted to get away from: Ryan
Person you wanted to hit: Myself
person you wanted to yell at: God
Person you wanted to run away with: Jessica Alba ^_^
Person you IMed: ...
E-mail you sent: A random one to a friend
Time you were embarrased: i have no idea
Moment you wanted to last forever: any time im happy
Moment you wanted to die: most of the time really... ah well
Time you cried: Can't remeber really...
Time you laughed: Yesterday
Time you couldn't stop smiling: James says i never stop smiling even when pissed off.

*~*Favorite...*~*
Band: Machine Head
Food: Pizza
Drink: Irn Bru
Candy: To many to chose from
Ice-Cream: see above
Book: Hitch Hiker's Guide to the Galaxy
Author: unknown
Type of music: Mostly Metal and Industrial/EBM type stuff
Store: Avalanche
Article of clothing: Machine Head Arm Shirt
Sport: Ice Hockey
TV Show: The Simpsons, Family Guy, Scrubs, South Park
Movie: The Crow, Dogma, Sin City
Video Game: Counter Strike - Condition Zero
Board Game: Do cards count?
Holiday?: Anyday I get to sleep
Day of the week: Wednesday
Month: May

*~*Have you ever...*~*
Cheated on someone?: Sadly yes :(
Snuck out?: Yup
Stolen?: hahaha WHSmiths... i say no more
Smoked?: Must keep my will power up
Done drugs?: Yup
Drank?: Who me... of course =P
Broken the law?: Yea
Been arrested?: Not yet
Gotten into a fight?: Yea
Won a fist fight?: Nope but never wanted to... I just wanted to do what I was out to do
Gone skinny dipping?: Nope
Lied?: Who hasn't?
Ran around in the rain?: Yes the fun of coming home wet and cold ¬_¬
Been so afraid of a nightmare that you couldnt sleep?: yea
Been in love?: yea...

*~*The Loose Ends*~*
Agree with martyrdom?: y bother disagreeing it was still happen
Position on abortion?: Depends on the situation
Position on the death-penalty?: Death is an escape...
Agree with self-punishment?: Nope
Trust your government?: As long as I stay alive... nope...
do you want to find love?: I dont see the point in looking anymore... Although it brings pure joy, it can bring everlasting pain
Do you wish you were a better person?: All the time...

Well thats the last time I plan to get drunk...

2005-11-04T20:53:53Z

Well last night was a good night to say the least, even though my plan to get wasted backfired on me really, ah well still had fun. It ended up just being me and Janine at Cryotec (Well out of the people I know). Dunno what Paul L droped out of going, and Sophie had work at 8am today so she decided not to go but she did come to the Solid Rock Cafe for a few drinks.
Heard some pretty kool tunes, dance like a nutter, thought I lost my phone, hunted around the dancefloor for it, found it in my pocket(hand, head, slap), danced some more, rested abit and dance some more after that. When the night finish we decided to get a taxi home since we would havehad to wait over and hour for the bus and to hell with at really. When I got home I just sat and watch some of the things I had recored recently, then went to my bed and didn't get up till 3:30, but for some reason I completely drained of all energy -_-'.
There is just one thing I don't get about the whole night. If I had 2 White & Mcay's and coke, before leaving the house. 4 Jack Dee's and coke in Solid and A Jack Dee and coke and a Jäger and coke in Cryotec, then why did I walk out of Cryotec completely sobber?!
I guess I will never know but ah well at least I had fun, would have been a bit better if more people could have came along but ah well.

Laterz!

Eh!

2005-11-02T19:37:57Z

Well I'm bored and its been awhile since I updated... thats because I've not had anything to really update about, and well I still don't really -_-.
Had an ok weekend, work was shit, due to the fact I was the only one in again and had to do must of the work myself but I kept getting put on the checkouts so I hardly got anything done. Probably didn't help that I didn't sleep on Friday night ¬_¬. Well after work got lift off Isla up to James and just chilled, listened to some music watched a movie, had a wee chat... the usual when ever I go up to his. Sunday we went down to Mark's and chilled, played some music and had a good laugh, was fun. After that I did my usual, and went to my Grampa's. He's not been well recently, he looks better than he did, but he still doesn't feel any better. Hoping he gets better soon tho.
Monday I just sat and chilled in the house for a while, then went down to Lindz' for a movie night sort of thing, it was not bad. we watched some of Sin City, but no one was really paying attention to it so we put on some music and then started to pay attention to the movie. After that we watch "Robin Hood Men In Tights", not seen that film in ages. Got a lift of Isla again and then I just came in and play some Counter Strike for a while, been playing that alot recently. In fact I think thats all I've been doing during the day.
I'm gonna go to Cryotec tomorrow and start the whole "I wanna get wasted plan", here's hoping it works. It's been a while since I went out so it should be fun, and I'm sure I will get drunk if nothing else. Anyway I think I'm gonna play some more Counter Strike now, because I can!

Laterz!

Nothing I Can Do...

2005-10-28T14:06:24Z

Full Name: Alan Scott
Age: 19
DOB: 08/05/86
Blood Type: Unknown
Mother and Fathers Names: Julie and Graham
School/College/Uni: None
Work place: Somerfield
*Best* Best Friends Names: Sazzie, James, Debz

*Random Information*

Fave Band: Machine Head
Fave Music Genre: Metal, EBM, Industrial
Fave Movies: The Crow, Sin City
Piercings: None
Tattoo: Tribal dragon head right bicep
Makes you happy: Playing guitar, chilling with friends, having fun in general
Makes you sad: Being bored for weeks on end, work
What kind of jewlery do ou wear: 2 necklace, 4 rings, bandana round right wrist, studded braclet on the left and a watch
Hobbies: Video Games, Music, Sometime drawing

*What*

Are you most likly to wear: Jeans, Band Thirt, Trainers
Are you most likly to wear your hair like: Tyed back
Are you most likly to be doing: Sitting on here being bored

*Who*

Do you love: Ravenous
Do You trust: My best friends
Do you hate: They would know who they are
Do You Like to drink with: Anyone who wants to get drunk
Do you go out with a lot: I very rarly leave the house :(
Do you wish you saw more of: Everyone
Do you wish you'd never met: Don't really know
Do you hang around with the most: At the moment the person would be James

Bored... can you tell?

2005-10-25T20:05:25Z

BUTTERFLY EYES

You have Butterfly
Eyes!
Positive Traits: Thoughtful,
Intelligent, Humble, Clever, Open
Minded
Negative Traits: Elitist,
Conceited, Apathetic, Cold, Sarcastic

Your eyes are the windows to your soul. What type of eyes do you have?
brought to you by Quizilla

Forgive me father for I have sinned... ah well no one perfect

2005-10-24T16:26:12Z

your confessions:

[ ] I'm afraid of silence.

[x] I am really ticklish.

[ ] I'm afraid of the dark

[ ] I'm afriad of facing my back to open doors at night.

[ ] I am a homosexual.

[X] I believe in true love

[x]I've run away from home

[X] I listen to political music. (R.A.T.M)

[ ] I collect comic books.

[X] I shut others out when I'm sad.

[ ] I open up to others easily.

[x] I am keeping a secret from the world.

[ ] I watch the news.

[x] I own over 5 rap CDs.

[X] I own over 5 Rock CDs.

[ ] I own something from Hot Topic.

[ ] I love Disney movies

[ ] I am a sucker for green eyes.

[x] I don't kill bugs. .. USUALLY

[x] I curse regularly

[ ] I have "x"s in my screen name

[x] I've slipped out a "lol" in a real conversation ...

[ ] I love Spam.

[x] I bake well.

[ ] I have worn pajamas to class.

[ ] I have owned something from Abercrombie.

[x] I have a job.

[ ] I love Martha Stewart.

[x]I like someone.

[ ] I am guilty of tYpInG lIkE tHiS.

[X] I am self-conscious.

[X] I love to laugh.

[X] I have tried alcohol

[ ] I drink alcohol on a regular basis.

[x] I have smoked a pack in one day.

[ ] I loved Go Ask Alice.

[ ]I have cough drops when I'm not sick

[ ] I can't swallow pills.

[X] I've been out of this country.

[ ] I can't sleep if there is a spider in the room.

[x] I love chocolate

[x] I bite my nails when im nervous..

[ ] I am comfortable with being me.

[x] I play computer games when I'm bored.

[ ] Gotten lost in the city.

[x] Seen a shooting star

[ ] Had a serious surgery.

[ ] Gone out in public in your pajamas..

[x] Have kissed a stranger.

[x] Hugged a stranger.

[ ] Been in a bloody fist fight with someone of the same sex.

[x] Been in a fist fight.

[ ] Been arrested.

[x] Laughed and had some type of beverage come out of your nose.

[x] pushed all the buttons on an elevator.

[ ] Made out in an elevator.

[x] Swore at your parents.

[X] Kicked a guy where it hurts.

[X] Hit a guy where it hurts

[ ] Been skydiving.

[ ] Been bungee jumping.

[x] gotten stitches.

[ ] Drank a whole gallon of milk in one hour.

[X] Bitten someone

[ ] Been to Niagara Falls.

[x] Gotten the chicken pox

[ ] Crashed into a car.

[ ] Been to Japan.

[X] Ridden in a taxi.

[x] Shoplifted.

[x] Been fired.

[X] Had feelings for someone who didn't have them back.

[x] Stole something from your job.

[ ] Gone on a blind date.

[ ] Had a crush on a teacher/coach.

[ ] Celebrated Mardi Gras in New Orleans

[X] Been to Europe.

[x] Slept with a co-worker.

[ ] Been married.

[ ] Gotten divorced

[x] Saw someone/something dying

[x] Driven over 400 miles in one day.

[x] done the weed.

[ ] Been to Canada. eh?

[X] Been On A Plane.

[x] seen a Rocky Horror Picture Film

[ ] Thrown up in a bar.

[ ] Eaten Sushi.

[ ] Been snowboarding.

[ ] Been skiing.

[ ] Been ice skating.

[x] Cried in public.

[ ] Walked purposely into traffic with your eyes closed.

[x] Liked someone even though you knew you shouldn't have

There's Evil In My Eyes

2005-10-24T15:44:30Z

The ABC meme:

A is for Age
19

B is for Booze of Choice
Jack Dee, or Morgan's Spice

C is for Career
Something in Music

D is for Dog's name
Don't have one

E is for essential items to bring to a party
Alcohol!!

F is for Favorite Song at the moment
Dulce Liquido - Pissed Off

G is for favorite Game
Dunno

H is for hometown
Johnstone

I is for instruments you play
Guitar

J is for jam or jelly that you like
Different kinds

K is for kids?
None

L is for last kiss
... no comment

M is for Mom's job
OAP Carer

N is for the name of your crush
... no comment

O is for overnight hospital stays
None

P is for Phobias
Sock Puppets

Q is for Quotes you like
It's Not The Size Of The Man In The Fight, But The Size Of The Fight In The Man

R is for relationship that lasted the longest
7 months

S is for sexual preference
I'm straight

T is for time you wake up
Whenever i feel like it really

U is for underwear
Kool... would never have thought of that

vegitable that you like
...

W is for worst habit
Doing nothing all day by choice then complaining about being bored

X is for X-rays you've had
Just one when I broke my left pinky finger

Y is for yummy food you make
The food i make has no name, its just a mix of stuff really

Z is for Zodiac Sign
Taurus

I wanna get fucked up!!

2005-10-22T21:08:32Z

Well its another Saturday, in the house by myself... the joys ¬_¬. I so fucking bored and work doesn't help with the bordem issue.
It's been a while since I was last out and it sucks because even then I couldn't get drunk because if I tryed I would have threw up and well when there is nothing to throw up it just plain hurts. The main reason I haven't been out much is money issues which also suck.
I just wanna go out or stay in the house and just get completly wasted and fucked up, but I can't do either just now. So I have a plan to go to Cryotec next month with plenty of cash and just drink as much as I can, and then when I get paid I might get a bottle of Jack Dee or something and just sit in the house and drink. I don't care if people don't join me, or if they call me sad for drinking on my own... I just wanna get out of my face. So my liver is going to hate me afterwards but thats a small price to pay for doing something I haven't done in ages and want to do.

Anyway rant over and done with... I think...

Laterz!

drake_409 @ 2005-10-18T21:20:00

2005-10-18T20:33:41Z

Bounasera All!

Well thats me back from my holiday thing, in Florance, and I must say it was not bad at all. Trying to buy things sometme proved problematic trying to buy things from some of the people who didn't speark english and only Italian, but thats where the handy thing of pointing and the knowing how to say "one" came in handy.
Most of the time was spent walking around taking in the lovely Italian art work and views, some time spend in churches, some in Gallieries, and some trying to buy things.
I got back home around 3pm this afternoon and well decided i would go to glasgow to get my guitar even though i was uber tired but if i had went to sleep i would fall straight back into my staying up late pattern. Got my guitar back and its working the was it did when I first got it. Since it was cheaper that I thought it would have been I decided to get my Machine Head DVD, hehe. Still to watch it will do that tomorrow after I go visit my sick grampa who fainted on sunday the day after his birthday which really sucks for him, but hopefully he will get better. I don't really want something to put a damper on the rather good mood I'm in just now, but if something does happen (touch wood) I'll just have to live with that fact.

Well I don't really have anything else to say so...

Bounasera.

I'm leaving on a jet plane... I know when I'll be back again... Tuesday...

2005-10-13T15:01:22Z

*~*Last person who...*~*

1. Slept in your bed: Other than me... Lindz

2. Saw you cry: Don't remember
3. Made you cry: Lindz :(
4. You went to the movies with: Sister and My Dad
5. You went to the mall with: That would be Lindz

*~*Have you ever...*~*

1. Said "I Love You" and meant it: Yes
2. Got in a fight with your pet: What pets...
3. Been to California: Nope
4. Been to Mexico: Nope
5. Been to China: Nope
6. Been to Canada: Nope
7. Been to Europe: I live in europe... but I'm going to Italy tomorrow
8. Danced naked: Nope
9. Wish you were the opposite sex: Not really

*~*Random...*~*

1. Do you have a crush on someone: Yea
2. What book are you reading now: None
3. Worst feeling in the world: Why would you make me live that memory
4. Future kids names: 0_0
5. Do you sleep with a stuffed animal: Nope
6. What's under your bed: Sparky
7. Favorite sport to watch: Ice Hockey
8. Location: Computer Cupboard
9. Piercings/Tattoos: No piercings, Tattoo Right Arm
10. Do you drink: Not as often as I use to :(
11. What are you most scared of: Being nothing
12. Where do you want to get married: I think about that when the time comes
13. Who do you really hate: ¬_¬
14. Do you have a job: Yep, :( need new one tho
15. Do you like being around people: Sometimes
16. Have you ever liked someone you had no chance with: Oh yes
17. Have you ever cried: No because I am an emotionless robot ¬_¬
18. Are you lonely right now: You could say that yea
19. Song that's stuck in your head a lot: Combichrist - God Wrapped In Plastic

*~*Have You Ever....*~*
1. Been in love: Yup
2. Played strip poker: More strip blackjack
3. Gotten beaten up: yup
4. Pulled an all nighter: Yup
5. Been on radio/tv: nope
6. Been in a mosh-pit: hell yeah
7. Do you have any gay/lesbian friends: yea
8. Skinny dipped: nope

*~*In the last 24 Hours have you...*~*
1. Cried: Nope
2. Bought something: More that I should have as usual
3. Gotten sick: Nope
4. Sang: Baddly
5. Been kissed: Nope
6. Had sex: Nope
7. Felt stupid: Yes
8. Talked to an ex: Nope
9. Missed someone: Yup
10. Hugged someone: Yea

Well pay day is fun... if you know how to control your spending habits ¬_¬.

Today went to Glasgow to hand out my CV, get applcation forms, Get a Ticket for Fear Factory and one for Arch Enemy and take my guitar to Sound Control to get fixed. Done everything on my list, handed out 3 CVs and got forms for Virgin and HMV. I have my tickets now I just need to put them in a safe place so they don't get lost, and my guitar is on the list to get repaired, and hopfully this time they won't just change one thing and say its fixed when its not, like last time.

Of course thats not all I bought today, since well, I had to eat, so got food. Then I made my usuall mistake, when ever I go to Glasgow, and went to Avalanche. Ended up comeing out of there with a new CD -_-' and also I bought strings for my guitar, ok that one I can be let off with since I need strings.

Tomorrow I'm leaving the country ^_^. Only main problem is I need to be up and start getting ready to leave at 3AM!!! and well with only having 3 hours sleep last night due to really fucked up dreams... I think I'm going to die... ¬_¬, because well I won't be able to get any sleep untill after 10pm tonight since I'm working my usuall Thursday shift, but then I guess I can sleep on the plane. So happy first time out of the UK and my frist time in a plane all in one day ^_^, but then I will probably be sleeping most of the trip there ¬_¬... Ah well can't complain. Well I suppose I better go make sure I have all my stuff packed then start getting ready for work.

Oh and since I won't be here:

HAPPY BIRTHDAY PAUL

Laterz!

drake_409 @ 2005-10-11T22:18:00

2005-10-11T21:18:40Z

*Basic Survey [ 87 questions]*
basics
Name::	Alan
Nickname::	Theres a list
Location::	Computer Cupboard
Gender::	Male
Birthplace::	RAH
Birthstone::	dunno
Birthday::	8th May
Sign::	Taurus
Righty or Lefty::	Lefty
Screenname::	drake_409
your looks
Height::	5'7 / 5'8
Weight::	unknown
Shoe size::	8/9
Hair Color::	brown
Hair Length::	just passed my shoulder
Eye Color::	Blue/Green
Size::	Huh?
Glasses::	None
Braces::	Use to have them
Piercings::	None
Tattoos::	Tribal Dragon head right arm
fashion
Where do you shop::	anywere really
What do you usually wear::	baggy jeans, band t shirt, shirt
What kind of shoes do you wear::	DC skate trainers
Do you wear a watch::	sometimes
Color you never wear::	pink
Color you wear at least once a week::	Black
Something you wear everyday::	Socks
Do you wear make up everyday::	nope
Make up essential::	nope
Most cherished piece of clothing::	My bandana, never leave home without it
You wouldn't be caught dead wearing::	a dress...
Do you wear belts::	only if i have to
Do you wear hats::	sometimes
How many pairs of shoes do you have::	3
music
Favorite kind of music::	Metal, EBM
Least Favorite::	POP!!
How many CD's do you have::	Dunno
Last CD you bought::	Fear Factory - Transgression
Whats in your CD player right now::	Trivium - Ember To Inferno
Do you download music::	yup
Favorites
Color::	Black, Red, Purple
Number::	7, 13
Season::	Fall
Ice cream::	Vanilla
Website::	www.i-am-bored.com
Quote::	So a guy walks into a bar...
Store::	Avalanche
Band::	Machine Head
Singer::	Hard one
Rapper::	None
Group::	Machine Head are know as a group to
Song::	Right now - Apopygma Berzerk - Until The End Of The World
Movie::	The Crow
Actor::	Johnny Depp
Actress::	Jessica Alba ;)
Kind of movies::	Comedy, Action, Horror
Place to be::	In a reasonably priced pub/club
Time of day::	Night
Clothing Brand::	dont have one
Animal::	Dragon, Cat, Wolves
Food::	Pizza
Holiday::	Halloween
Shape::	Triangle
Restaraunt::	I dont eat at restaraunts... no reason to
Fast food place::	McDonald's, Burger King
Boy's name::	dunno
Girl's name::	dunno
Word::	Fuck!
Month::	May/October
Candy::	hard one
love and relationships
Sexual Preference::	Females
Boyfriend or Girlfriend::	Nope :(
Crush::	Yea... i guess
Do you believe in love at first sight::	Nope
What do you look for in a guy/girl::	Good apperance, then personallity comes later
Best physical feature::	Eyes
Best hair color::	Any
Best eye color::	Any
randoms
Do you paint your nails::	nope
What color is your tooth brush::	Blue
What's on your desktop::	A random pic
Do you like roller coasters::	Oh Yes
Do you do drugs::	Not often, but sometimes weed
Are you a virgin::	Nope
Do you have any pets::	nope
What time do you go to sleep::	Whenever I'm tired and near my bed
Take this survey \| Find more surveys You've been totally Bzoink*d

Why must you make me wait you bastards?!

2005-10-09T20:13:57Z

Well today has been alright. Had some clear thinking for a change. Had to wait on the Sky guys coming to install Sky+, bastards said they would be here between 1pm and 4pm but they never showed up till about 5pm ¬_¬. Ah well at least now I have more that 5 channels to flick through when I'm bored ^_^.
After they had finished and left went to my grampa's as normal, I just wanna know why my cousin David's girlfriend has to bring her kid with her -_-' all it does is make noise and demands... ah well, nothing I can go about it other than, when I'm done eating, run up the stairs and hide.
Since I got back from my grampa's I've done nothing but sit and download some music and so far I've downloaded to Combichrist albums and working on an Icon Of Coil and a Assemblage 23 album hehehe Soulseek is fun ^_^. Anyway thats is all I have to say since well nothing else has happened today... Damn my boring life.

Laterz

Things can only get better... I hope

2005-10-06T22:07:50Z

Well Last night I got an email from Lindz saying sorry for everything thanks to an email Saz had sent her so now I'm a little annoyed at Saz, since Lindz had nothing to be sorry about. I ended up phoning her to find out what was going on and to try and sort things out, but I still don't know whats going out and I don't know if things are really sorted. I still have a question I need answer since I didn't ask it last night, dunno why but i just could find the strength to ask it, and well this question my help me understand whats going on or just be a waste of time.
I want to keep waiting for her to sort out her mind, but then I don't know how long I would be waiting, so I guess I've just got to try and live with the facts, as hard as I'm actually finding that do to.
As long as I keep myself busy, playing games, playing guitar, etc. I should be fine and dwell on the subject so maybe the fact that I'm going on holiday soon was rather good timing... I guess. Well time to stop dwelling and telling.

Laterz!

Why are you avoiding me sleep??

2005-10-05T02:01:25Z

Well I can't sleep, been trying for over an hour now and no luck (duh!). My head is hurting... I'm unsure if that is the alcohols fault (doubt it) or if its because there are question in there that need answered but have no one to answer them. Sadly they are only questions that can be answered by one person and said person is a sleep.
I feel like I was about to give a speech in the middle of a meeting and everyone one else just left before I had the chance to even take a breath. (Not that I personal know what that feels like but I can take a wild stab at it.)
It just seems like my world is falling apart around me, that I've lost myself somewhere and can find any leads to where I might be. I don't know what I wanna do any more. I dunno where my life is leading and I don't know if I loved anymore...... (not by friend or family)
I must find these things out before I go insane, before my world is gone forever.....

drake_409 @ 2005-10-03T13:47:00

2005-10-03T12:56:41Z

1. What time is it? 13:48

2. Name as it appears on birth certificate: Alan Scott

3. Piercing: None

4. Eye colour: Blue/Green

5. Place of birth: RAH Paisley

6. Favourite food: Pizza

7. Ever been to Africa? No

8. Ever been toilet papering? TPing :D

9. Love someone so much it made you cry? Yes

10. Been in a car accident? Nope

11. Croutons or bacon bits? In what?

12. Favourite day of the week? Tuesday, the only day I have no chance of having to do anything

13. Favourite restaurant? Dunno

14. Favourite flower: White Rose

15. Favourite sport to watch: Ice Hockey

16. Favourite drink: Alcoholic - Jack Dee or Morgan's Non alcoholic - Coke or Irn-Bru

17. Favourite ice cream: Vanilla

18. Disney or Warner Bros: Dunno

19. Favourite fast food restaurant: McDonalds or Burger King

20. Colour of your bedroom carpet? 0_o

21. How many times did you fail your driver's test? None, never took it

22. Before this, from whom did you get your last e-mail? Janine

23. What Store would you choose to max out your credit card? Sound Control

24. What you do most often when you are bored? Complain

25. What time is Bedtime? Whenever I'm tired

26. Who will respond to this e-mail the quickest? This ain't an e-mail

27. Who will be the least likely to respond? People dont respond just steal it :P

28. Favourite TV+ shows: The Simpsons

29. Last person you went to dinner with: Dunno

30. Ford or Chevy: hmmm...

31. What are you listening to right now? CombiChrist - Enjoy The Abuse

32. What is your favourite colour? Red, black, purple

33. Lake, ocean or river? River

34. How many tattoos do you have? One

35. Time you finished this email? Not an email!! but 13:55

36. Have you ever run out of gas? Nope

I long to be a Million Miles away....

2005-10-02T18:55:11Z

Well I went out to Bedlam last night and I must say it was not to bad a night, but then I just didn't seem to fully enjoy myself, 1)I don't know how many thoughts are in my head making it sore, 2)I had really eaten before going out so then I couldn't drink to much to forget the thoughts. I just to know what the hell all these thoughts are in my head, how they got there and what do they want. I feel like I just want to get away from everything for a while, friends, family, material objects, the lot, but i cant afford to go anywhere on my own, and I can't just hermit myself in the house for the fact that family is still here. If only I could figure out a way to think, still be around people, and sort out my head then I sure I would feel alot better, but until such time as I can figure that out I just want to dissappear for a while... it looks like the closest i will get to that will be the 14th, when my aunt and uncle are taking, my cousin, sister and myself to Italy for my cousin's b-day... just won't be the same as what i want tho.

Pain go away

2005-09-27T13:19:26Z

Another day, not much change. Still feel like crap, the only replies to my question, are Lindz so far since saz is one of the exceptions for the fact she hasn't even hung out with us in ages.
Didn't get much sleep last night but then its hard to sleep when your walking all over Johnstone, and when your brain just won't leave you alone. I just wanna try and set things right with Lindz but with her emotional barrier in the way it looks like it will prove to be difficult no matter how hard I try. The only thing I can do is tell her I'm sorry but by the looks of things that will never be enough. If only she knew.......

To Hell with it all...

2005-09-26T22:56:30Z

Ever had one of those days that you wish had just never happened... Yeah, today is one of thoses days -_-. All i wanted to happen today was to relax watch some T.V, play some guitar and maybe chill with Lindsay for a while, but as it would turn out thats not what today had in store for me at all.

To kick things off, day time T.V when u have a total of 5 channels sucks, so i gave up on that idea. Playing some guitar was fine until it came to tuning then I just couldn't be bothered, and as for chilling with Lindz... It was rain and she had no way of gettin here, and she was in her P.J's and not in the mood to move.

So I was talking to her online and i told her about the latest message from "the slut" asking if my and her were still friends on some level, i think you guess how i feel about that. As the conversation went on Lindz said something a being prepared to put up an emoitional barrier, to which i respond with "Sometime I feel like u've already put up ur emotional barrier." I don't even know where that came from or anything, so i got scare of the converation it was going to lead to, and ran away.

Still feel really bad for doing it but, the day gets better ¬_¬.

After a while i went back online as did Lindz, and well i had my her feel rejected by doing that, and i know excatly how that felt because over the last few weeks or so, I've been feeling rejected, not just by Lindz... but by everyone. I've just been trying to hide it and dismiss it as a one off thing that isn't likely to happen again, but i know it has happened more than once. I didn't want to make a big deal out of it or anything, but because of my habit to fuck things up, I've made matters worse for myself.
So I have just one question to ask my friends...

Why do you never seem to invite me out to things?

(If because you think I'd be poor is ur reason forget it, because if i have no money i can always try to borrow some off my parents, but you don't even give me that!)